So, maybe school starts next week. Maybe I'm gonna be a Senior. And, who knows? Maybe I'm completely terrified. Maybe I'm not. But, probably.
Maybe last year was the worst year of my life. Maybe I don't like watching other people with their best friends. Maybe I'm jealous. Maybe I miss MY best friend. Actually, there's no maybe. I for sure miss my best friend.
Maybe I thought this summer was gonna be as amazing as last summer. Maybe I was expecting late night talks with my friends, hanging out whenever possible, or just being super spontaneous again. Maybe I wasn't. Well, actually, I was.
Maybe I'm gonna miss having my big brother and his friend here to tell me that my friends are kinda dumb when the lie to me. Maybe I'm gonna miss doing pranks with them, too. Maybe I'm gonna miss my big sister, too. I can't explain exactly why. But, I sure as heck will.
Maybe I know what I want to do with my life..but, at the same time, maybe everything's just a blur.
Maybe I'm nervous about being Laurel President and a senior at the same time. Too much stress? Maybe.
Maybe I'm just a worrier. Yeah. That's probably it. Maybe I just need to breathe. After all, I did overcome a lot of my fears this summer. Maybe I can do that during this school year as well.
Maybe....
i love that you found my blog! you are so cute. and, you sound just like i remember feeling right before my senior year. my older brother and the guy i had a HUGE crush on both reported to the MTC on the same day, like 2 weeks before school started. i was a lonely wreck! if you can keep the senioritis from eating you alive, it won't be such a bad year :) just focus on the fact that a year from now you can be FREE and no one can tell you what to do in college! (seriously, huge fan of college.)
ReplyDeleteThanks for coming to visit my blog! I secretly did a happy dance when I saw that you followed me back! And, thanks for the comforting words. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one! Sheesh! And, college is gonna be super fun, but I feel like that might be part of what I'm scared of. How pathetic! Haha. Ms. Anxiety Girl right here!
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